Thursday, February 5, 2009

An Unwanted Mess

I recently had a spat with my parents, over, who knows what. It was mostly with my father, saying that he didn't understand how I could just talk about boys with my friends 24/7, and a bunch of other crap that I didn't really listen to. A thought occurred to me in the middle of his unnecessary ranting: My parents had yet to know that I was bi. Now, don't get me wrong, I feel terrible about keeping somethink like this from them, but at the same time, I know what they think about that whole subjebt of homosexuality/bisexuality. It's not that they hate it or think it's wrong, I just know that they wouldn't like the idea of having a bisexual daughter.

Example 1: I've always wanted an older brother and am writing a short story where I have an older brother, who is gay. I was really psyched about how the story was turning out so I decided to tell my mother about it, including the fact that I had an older, gay brother. She was really supportive of the whole thing, until I told her that I had made him gay. This she did not seem to like (i.e. facial expressions showing that she didn't like it... a muttered "oh please.")

Example 2: I made a few new friends this year that were actually bi themselves (I became friends with them before I knew this.) I told my parents about them and they didn't seem to happy about this. They made alot of comments saying that alot of bisexual are... slutty, if you will.

-Sigh- I know that at some point I'll have to tell my parents about this. For the time being I'll just have to keep it to myself.

3 comments:

  1. Have you ever read "Am I Blue"? It's a collection of short stories about being gay/lesbian/bi and coming out, stuff like that. It's a great book...you might want to look it up.

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  2. I know how you feel. I felt the same way. I thought my mother and father would feel the same way about me being gay. When I finally came out, I told my Mom and she acted oddly about it sometimes (asking like if I ever wanted to try having a girlfriend), but now she has accepted it.

    I told my Dad...but he never mentions it. Sometimes he'll act as though he doesn't even remember me telling him. But, it is whatever.

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  3. oh i wanna read that story someday! and how dare they call bi people slutty! i mean, Amber is pretty strange but not slutty!

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