Thursday, February 5, 2009

An Unwanted Mess

I recently had a spat with my parents, over, who knows what. It was mostly with my father, saying that he didn't understand how I could just talk about boys with my friends 24/7, and a bunch of other crap that I didn't really listen to. A thought occurred to me in the middle of his unnecessary ranting: My parents had yet to know that I was bi. Now, don't get me wrong, I feel terrible about keeping somethink like this from them, but at the same time, I know what they think about that whole subjebt of homosexuality/bisexuality. It's not that they hate it or think it's wrong, I just know that they wouldn't like the idea of having a bisexual daughter.

Example 1: I've always wanted an older brother and am writing a short story where I have an older brother, who is gay. I was really psyched about how the story was turning out so I decided to tell my mother about it, including the fact that I had an older, gay brother. She was really supportive of the whole thing, until I told her that I had made him gay. This she did not seem to like (i.e. facial expressions showing that she didn't like it... a muttered "oh please.")

Example 2: I made a few new friends this year that were actually bi themselves (I became friends with them before I knew this.) I told my parents about them and they didn't seem to happy about this. They made alot of comments saying that alot of bisexual are... slutty, if you will.

-Sigh- I know that at some point I'll have to tell my parents about this. For the time being I'll just have to keep it to myself.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009